Youtubin'.

So, I was on Youtube and an advertisement popped up that gives people the chance to have a legitimate  Youtube channel with the right production gear and everything.. I thought to myself, "How much fun would that be?" Instead of writing about all the stuff I think about, I could just tell the whole world while everyone puts a face to my name. (I can't decide whether that would be a good thing or a bad thing.. either way...) I decided to check it out.
*Click*
What? I need to put in my phone number? Crud. (For those who don't know...) I don't have a cellphone. Maybe I could put my mom's phone number in... No, for some reason, that seems immoral. Dang. Oh well. No Youtube awesomeness for me.
What do you guys think? Should I limit myself to my blog for now, so that I can learn to spend more time updating it? Or, have I worn my blog out and should start recording the conversations I have with myself for everyone to see?
YOU DECIDE. Because, I can't.

Oh, look! A fancy picture.

Insecurity

So, I'm lying in bed, late at night waiting to go to sleep when I look over at my laptop and think,"I'm gonna write something in my blog." Then it hits me. I KNOW I'm gonna write something in my blog. (Here goes.)

When was the last time you looked at yourself in the mirror and said,"Wow, I look good today."? I've noticed that a lot of people are always finding fault with their looks. Why not find something about yourself that makes you feel good. I know sometimes, when I look in the mirror and I don't like what I see, I keep looking and find more and more negative things. But, that's what we do.

We get right up in front of the mirror to where we can see the pores that no one else does.

Don't look so closely. No one looks at every single detail on your body.

(Oh my gosh! Is that a split-end?! You're gross!)<--Nobody does that.

You're always seeing beautiful girls looking in the mirror disliking the way they look. Why?(Well, I blame the media.) They're looking at what people want them to be and not at what they have.

I'm not saying you shouldn't care about how you look, because you should. But, you need to look good for yourself...not others. If you think you look acceptional, you do. Don't change yourself though. You are exactly the way you should be. Your personality is your own and you shouldn't feel insecure about who you are and what you think. Find the one thing about yourself that your proud of! It could be your smile, your eyes, your hair, laugh, skin, voice, personality, etc. when you find that one thing, hold onto it. It's not the only thing that makes you you, but it's what makes you happy.

You can't change your physical appearance, (well, you can but you shouldn't) so, don't look in the mirror and say,"Jeez! Is my nose really that big?! And look at my EARS! Are they actually that crooked?! I need to change that to make myself happy!"

Make the most of the cards you were dealt. Say,"I'm proud to have this nose. My grandma had the same nose, and she was beautiful!" and, "My great-uncle had these ears and nobody thought twice about them."

Like I said, don't look to closely. Nobody else does.

Regret

Do you ever wish you could take it back? You know...that thing you did once? The thing that you regret. You wanna take it back so badly, but it just sits in the corner of your mind, and every once in a while it'll stand up and say, "Hey, remember me?" You hang your head down in slight-depression and think to yourself, "Why was I so stupid?"
I think we've all done this. Sometimes we act like it's no big deal, but we really just want to run back into our room, shut the door, and pretend it never happened.

It wasn't my idea to write about this. But, I think it's something we all feel from time to time. I know I have, and that's why I can give perspective on it.

Regret is not a good feeling, so if you haven't felt it before, I'm very happy for you. You must be some sort of an awesome person. But, for those of us who have felt regret...It sucks.

re·gret

/rɪˈgrɛt/ Show Spelled [ri-gret] Show IPA verb, -gret·ted, -gret·ting, noun

–verb (used with object)

1.

to feel sorrow or remorse for (an act, fault, disappointment, etc.): He no sooner spoke than he regretted it.

2.

to think of with a sense of loss: to regret one's vanished youth.

–noun

3.

a sense of loss, disappointment, dissatisfaction, etc.

4.

a feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc.

5.

regrets, a polite, usually formal refusal of an invitation: I sent her my regrets.

6.

a note expressing regret at one's inability to accept an invitation: I have had four acceptances and one regret.

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