Insecurity

So, I'm lying in bed, late at night waiting to go to sleep when I look over at my laptop and think,"I'm gonna write something in my blog." Then it hits me. I KNOW I'm gonna write something in my blog. (Here goes.)

When was the last time you looked at yourself in the mirror and said,"Wow, I look good today."? I've noticed that a lot of people are always finding fault with their looks. Why not find something about yourself that makes you feel good. I know sometimes, when I look in the mirror and I don't like what I see, I keep looking and find more and more negative things. But, that's what we do.

We get right up in front of the mirror to where we can see the pores that no one else does.

Don't look so closely. No one looks at every single detail on your body.

(Oh my gosh! Is that a split-end?! You're gross!)<--Nobody does that.

You're always seeing beautiful girls looking in the mirror disliking the way they look. Why?(Well, I blame the media.) They're looking at what people want them to be and not at what they have.

I'm not saying you shouldn't care about how you look, because you should. But, you need to look good for yourself...not others. If you think you look acceptional, you do. Don't change yourself though. You are exactly the way you should be. Your personality is your own and you shouldn't feel insecure about who you are and what you think. Find the one thing about yourself that your proud of! It could be your smile, your eyes, your hair, laugh, skin, voice, personality, etc. when you find that one thing, hold onto it. It's not the only thing that makes you you, but it's what makes you happy.

You can't change your physical appearance, (well, you can but you shouldn't) so, don't look in the mirror and say,"Jeez! Is my nose really that big?! And look at my EARS! Are they actually that crooked?! I need to change that to make myself happy!"

Make the most of the cards you were dealt. Say,"I'm proud to have this nose. My grandma had the same nose, and she was beautiful!" and, "My great-uncle had these ears and nobody thought twice about them."

Like I said, don't look to closely. Nobody else does.

Childhood

Do you remember when you were young and you spent all your time out in the sun exploring nature, making up games, playing in the dirt, and swimming in creeks? If you've never done any of those things, I'm terribly sorry. You missed out.

When I was young I did all of those things and I did them practically everyday. Rain or shine. I was a weird kid though...I played with bugs. I had fun, and that's what childhood is mostly about. That and learning what is bad and why you shouldn't do anything bad(or else).

I would say that I had an acceptional childhood. I even used to read outside under a tree.

Now a kid's childhood consists of mostly television and junk food(at least that's what's advertised). They don't have to make up games or use they're imagination anymore, because it's already done for them. I mean, I played video games as a child, but I loved playing outside. Maybe I'm wrong about kids these days, and I hope I am. Kids may love playing outside more than I think they do, they might never change. I hope I'm right.

By the way, I'm sorry for the delayed post, a lot has been happening with my computer and I might need to get a new one(fingers crossed)! Also, if you like my blog, you might like my best friend's blog. His punctuation and grammar aren't the best(don't tell him I told you that), but he's funny and has many strange adventures with many characters. Be sure to read his mysterious tales from the beginning.

This Mystery Man blog link: http://thismysteryman.blogspot.com/

Be sure to tell me what you think and I'll bug him to write more stories.

Stark-Raving-Mad!!

I don't know about a lot of you people out there, but I'm tired of being snowed in. Human contact is sort of a need of mine and I don't consider my mom human. Ok...that's an exageration. I love my mom, but I need more than just her to hang out with. I'm going a little stir crazy or as my mom would say, "stark-raving-mad!" Can you tell I've been hanging out with my mom too much?

Although, this has been quite an experience. I learned how to drive in ice and snow, I cleaned my room twice, started using Skype, spent two days in my pajamas, experimented with my hair, did all my laundry, stayed up late every night, and lost two cats. None of those are exagerated.(Ok...I cleaned my room once.)

ANYway, I just want to know how everyone is handling this weather. Have you been experiencing as much car trouble as me? Do you have any funny stories about the happenings of this superb blizzard that you would like to share? If so leave a comment or email me at: jacinda_dawn@hotmail.com <--click it.

It's Been a While

I am so thankful to have Internet! I haven't been on here in more than a month because of no Internet connection!

On the up side, I got to see my twin sister get married! The wedding was beautiful, all the decorations were put together so well, and she looked AMAZING! My wedding gift to her was a video I made to play at her wedding. No one was supposed to see it until the wedding took place, but when they started playing the video, there was NO SOUND! I was freaking out! My face went red and I apologized to both my sister and her hubs. Of course, I was assured that it wasn't my fault and I was promptly forgiven.

To make up for the sound, the pastor marrying them talked in the place of everyone in the video. It was pretty funny and also appreciated. But nothing could make up for the loss of the music. Without the music, it didn't bounce like I wanted it too.

Comments to Santa

Here lately Christmas has been on my brain...I don't know why.(Maybe it has something to do with it being ll days til Christmas....I don't know.) But, since I'm sort of in the christmas spirit, I grabbed a hand full comments from a website that were meant for the big guy himself.
Here they are:

Hi Santa, we enjoying having your magical elf staying with us, only Mom & Dad can see him. I am really trying to be good but it's hard sometimes with two brothers.
- Biancha, 8, Calgary, Alberta

Dear Santa: I wave to you in the mall every time I go. Take care, and remember how much I enjoyed the Christmas I was 8 years old? I had a jumping/screaming fit yelling, "Santa spoils me!" It was a lot of fun. Toodle-oo
- Megan, 16, San Marcos, California.

I have been really good so no more coal in my stocking this year. OK?!?
- Craig, 6, Elk Grove, California.

Where do you buy the nose polish for Rudolph's nose? I'd like to get some too and try it.
- Kyle, 8, Portal, Georgia.

do you really have a magic key for every houses in the world?
- Philip, 7, Angelsey, United Kingdom.

I promise I will not snoop for presents because that is being bad
- Jamie, 7, Boise, Idaho.

Mommy has a mini van on her list, but I told her I didn't think that it would fit into your bag.
- Samantha, 4, Cheektowaga, New York.

Are you looking for any more helpers? Do you pay well? Or do the helpers just get milk and cookies?
- Heidi, 54, Brisbane, Australia.

last week i was naughty and my dad phoned you and told you to cross the street scooter off my list.I have promised to be very good in the future ,to do as i am told and not to tease my brother any more.I hope you will put the scooter back on my list
- Robert, 8, Rotherham, United Kingdom.

I DID NOT BELIEVE MY MOM WHEN SHE SAID SHE HAD YOUR ADDRESS , NOW I DO . I WILL BE GOOD FROM NOW ON .
- Shaine, 6, Shoal Lake, Manitoba

Last year I heard you eating a cookie by my bedside but I keept my eyes closed shut and pretended to sleep and I foolded you!
- Sarah, 7, Orwell, Ohio

We willput some paper on the floor so your muddy boots don't upset Mummy
- Kit, 5, North Marston, United Kingdom.

I sit on my bumper in Mr. Quigley's class. I raise my hand when I'm supposed to. I keep my hands to myself.
- Dan, 5, Cheektowaga, New York

Get mrs. Claus to make nose warmers for the reindeer,
- Dustin, 8, Yorkton, Saskatchewan

if you still have room in your sled....could you please try to find a girlfriend for my dad....to keep him busy, so he will leave my toys alone....thx nicholas
- Nicholas, 5, Strathmore, Alberta

I promise to be better and do as my mommy says because I don't want underwear and coal from you again this year.
- Andy, 4, Rogersville, Tennessee.

I promise to share my toys with my sister (is that good?).
- Max, 3, Vancouver, British Columbia

Even though My Little brother hasn't been the best kid, he should at least get a lump of coal.
- Sean, 12, Eustis, Florida.

Last year we left out for you a piece of mince pie and a beer, but when we got up next morning we notied a bit of icing was taken from the Christmas cake. Mum said you must have been extra hungry!
- Paul, 7, Rayleigh, United Kingdom.

I may be Jewish but I still love Santa Claus! Happy Hannukkah!!!
- Vanessa, 9, Winnipeg, Manitoba.

I'm emailing you this year because I'm afraid you might not get my letter by regular mail again (you know how the Post Office is!)
- Nicholas, 6, Lethbridge, Alberta.

Oh by the way, my cancer is all gone this year and my hair has grown back. You might night recognize me so I will leave you a new picture
- Kyle, 6, Faulkton, South Dakota.

Does your Mommy make you stop and brush your toothes after you have milk and cookies at each house?
- Celine, 4, Wilmington, Delaware.

I think Jesus would like a preasent on his birthday. I think he would like all the kids in heaven that don,t have their Moms and Dads with them receive a gift also.
- Brittany, 6, Calgary, Alberta.

i didn't go see you at the store cause i was afraid. i'm a real little chicken. But I'm not afraid to see you in my pooter!
- Nick, 3, St. Catharines, Ontario.

Santa do you have a space traveller so kids in space get presents?
- Connor, 5, North Vancouver, British Columbia.

I'll leave you milk and cookies this year like I always do! But you're getting kind of chubby so I'll leave small ones...
- Marisa, 7, Coon Rapids, Minnesota.

I have been really good all year long but don't ask Mommy and Daddy if its true.
- Sarah, 6, Littleton, Colorado

You look so beautiful. Your eyes sparkle.
- Matthew, 8, Orlando, Florida.

Tell Mrs. Claus that I'm sure her cookies are good and i would love to be a tester if she needs extras.
- Mitchell, 10, Belmont, Nova Scotia.

CAN YOU ASK THE REINDEER TO WEAR SLIPPERS THIS YEAR SO AS THEY DON'T WAKE ME UP WHEN THEY LAND ON MY ROOF. THANKS!
- Joel, 5, Bradford, United Kingdom

Santa, Come to Ireland! The leprechauns want to meet your elves!
- Marion, 9, Limerick, Ireland.

Do you know Tim Allen?
- David, 8, Lancaster, Texas.

Where did you get the magic dust that makes the reindeer fly? Can I get some?
- Rachel, 8, North Rose, New York.

Thanks for last year and please don't forget my cousin. She can't help but be bad.
- Meg, 6, Sydney, Australia.

Hope you enjoy the food-don't rip you're trousers in the chimeny this year-we won't always have a spare pair you know!!
- Nicole, 5, Glasgow, United Kingdom.

And there you have it. I hope you all enjoyed the comments. Merry Christmas!

Workin' on My Thoughts...

I realised that I work on this blog quite a bit... It may not look like it from the outside, but on most of the posts I put up, I work on them for days at a time. I really do put a lot of time and effort into this blog. Don't get me wrong, I don't feel under appreciated or anything... I just want you all to know that I don't under appreciate you.

There will be a new post soon.

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Thank you.

Regret

Do you ever wish you could take it back? You know...that thing you did once? The thing that you regret. You wanna take it back so badly, but it just sits in the corner of your mind, and every once in a while it'll stand up and say, "Hey, remember me?" You hang your head down in slight-depression and think to yourself, "Why was I so stupid?"
I think we've all done this. Sometimes we act like it's no big deal, but we really just want to run back into our room, shut the door, and pretend it never happened.

It wasn't my idea to write about this. But, I think it's something we all feel from time to time. I know I have, and that's why I can give perspective on it.

Regret is not a good feeling, so if you haven't felt it before, I'm very happy for you. You must be some sort of an awesome person. But, for those of us who have felt regret...It sucks.

re·gret

/rɪˈgrɛt/ Show Spelled [ri-gret] Show IPA verb, -gret·ted, -gret·ting, noun

–verb (used with object)

1.

to feel sorrow or remorse for (an act, fault, disappointment, etc.): He no sooner spoke than he regretted it.

2.

to think of with a sense of loss: to regret one's vanished youth.

–noun

3.

a sense of loss, disappointment, dissatisfaction, etc.

4.

a feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc.

5.

regrets, a polite, usually formal refusal of an invitation: I sent her my regrets.

6.

a note expressing regret at one's inability to accept an invitation: I have had four acceptances and one regret.

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